... to that Lil Heffer of a Hamster that bit my daughter!!!

~ Not sure what happened...it was fed and had adequate water..we just got up and it was in the corner of the cage..my son said *Mommy, it's dead* and I didn't quite know if I should have believed him until I heard him cry so I got up really fast and saw the thing just staring at me..well it wasn't exactly staring at me now was it..but it looked like it and that's all that counts.


So.. R.I.P Lil Heffer.. your funeral was touching and I am sure that you will be missed by everyone...including Bob the Builder who my Dh got for the kids as a replacement*don't ask me why*

Wish that I could have been drinking that rum and coke about now..how many more weeks of taking these meds did you say??

Is truly the only way that I can describe the legion of backbiters(as my Granny would say) that I have had to be dealing with, it's bad enough that I can not just come out and tell whom I want to f' straight off..nooooooo, I have to take the higher ground and grin and bare it..I mean WTF.

Desperation can lead many ppl to do and say many things, but don't friggen apologize to me after the fact cause I aint interested, nope..not after spending all of these years babysitting every Young & the Restless drama that came about, trying to take your word for fact even if that meant losing my friends as a result and then for you to take the coward route and act all blasted 2 faced just because you are too busy saving your own ass...2 hell with ya says I.

BUT I am thankful for the genuine and few select individuals who I have been keeping in contact with, to those 2-3 ppl whom I sent a one liner to, I have nothing else to say..so don't make me say something that I would prefer not to***f'ing hugs***

This is suppose to be about creating Families and regardless that is what makes me happy in life..no matter if Indy or Agency..it's sharing those life stories and seeing and hearing of the pride and joy and the rush of other related emotions that normally follows. I am so git damn tired of the bandwagon ready to open their mouths when they have no idea as to what is really going on.. I get it.. I am the new kid on the block..but for craps sake..relax and give me a fair shake before trying to stick your foot up my AZZ.

Onto a happier note; I found my Smurfs season 2 DVD and I was over the moon with happiness.. it was almost better then 2 rum and cokes with crushed ice...and a slice of lime...with sugar on the rim.... and a small straw so that I can pretend that my $6 went a really long way.

Well, on the 28th of May everyone in my Fam celebrated my Mommy's bd in addition to one of my sons... my Sister has been going on and on about getting the kids a pet that they would like(what's wrong with my pet snake?!), anyways he*my younger son* and my Sis went off to the local shopping mall and decided to purchase a TeddyBear Hamster without asking me 1st(bless her heart*rolling my eyes*).

So anyways I had to hear Jackie*my other Mom* carrying on about how the thing looked like a drugged out Sumo Wrestler , since I haven't had much dealings with these creatures I didn't pay it much mind....

UNTIL I saw the lil heffer, I swear that it is the length of my hand from wrist to the tips of my fingers(and my fingers are longgggggg)...fast-forward to the day that I was working hard with my Business*as usual..not even sure why I even mentioned that since it is the norm..* and I was alerted out of my sleep when my daughter started to scream and yell (((( That "soopid" Zoe bit me )))), it took me a bit to get it together but when all of the blood was running down her -> arm, legs, shirt, shorts and on the floor I was with it right away.

It took a bit for the bleeding to slow down and when it did I realized that darling Zoe bit my Aaliyah*she's 6 y/o by the way* on the tip of her finger and also around her nailbed. So of course I comforted her while she cried, cleaned off the injury and gave her some painkillers and watched her through the night..so I thought that was all to it....BOY WAS I WRONG.

My Business was just informed that another of my/our Surrogates just had a +++ pregnancy test!!!! It was very exciting and to be honest I am still on a high as with all of my Surrogates, I really think that IF the day ever comes when it will no longer be as exciting as the 1st time a Surrogate via my Business informed me that she was pregnant*we are up to 6 Surrogates who are pregnant with 6 or 7 babies so far); that it would be time to close the Business.

With this recent Surrogate I recalled telling her that I have a strong feeling that she was carrying more then one and even moreso that it would be a boy and a girl, although she mentioned that she has only carried girls it is still a feeling of mine*smiles*, what a RUSH!!!!!! There will be another 10 Surrogates this year that will either be preparing to do a transfer or home insems..I am getting a slight rush just thinking about it..it's not about adding stats but seeing the reactions and outcome with every journey that does it for me everytime- it makes the hours upon hours of work, sleepless nights and apologizing to my babies when Mommy has to cancel family events 90% worth it, I of course took off 10% because it's never easy putting your Family's needs 2nd to others but my kids are VERY wise and they "get" that it won't be forever.

'06 marks the time that I will be taking anymore Surrogates and/or Intended Parents as I will be preparing to have a sibling for my kidlings with my new Husband, this will be interesting and slowly I am growing more and more excited about such.. it will be weird carrying a baby that will not have to go to another home, but at the sametime if I hear my youngest daughter ask me for a baby sister one more timeeeeeee

There are gonna be loads of babies being born ending of this year- next year via my Business...I can't wait!!